I've been meaning to post a journal for a while, if nothing else to get some stuff out, but I've just been too apathetic to do so. Part of me is surprised that I haven't done this in three months, but most of me is not, as things have been moving fast for me. Some of this journal will go over the broad area of time that has been the last three months, the rest will mainly be restrained within this last week or so. I hope I don't confuse people with the differences.

First of all is about work related stuff. I will say straight out that if I ever find out that someone is a high dollar reseller, that you should expect me to get pissed at you. I get that there is entrepreneur's market out there when it comes to things, like printers for an example, which you can obtain high dollar items at retail stores at sale prices and then sell the item for full price on the internet. However this aggravates all the people who work at the store that you go to. For me, working at the store I do, I have at least one individual who comes in and purchases printers specifically to do this. Believe or not, this ends up hurting the store. We cannot guarantee that the manufacturer will reimburse us for the sale difference, and that he ONLY comes in to purchase those printers means we end up at a loss due to his actions. It also tanks the "Penetration" of extended warrantees that we sell, drops the "attachment percentage" (This is the sale of things that commonly go along with the product, like software, mice, keyboards for computers, and ink, paper, extra cables for printers) and all around is a detriment to our store. Most stores like the one that I work at pay attention to a number of different things at the end of the day, the actual sales, the extended warrantee percentage, and the attachment rate. So the concept for reselling, buy low sell high, is not unaccepted but it is harmful in the long run to companies, who often put high dollar items on sale specifically to draw other people into the stores and get them to also buy other things. Those who do reselling probably already know this, but for those who do DON'T LET ME FIND OUT.
This last week, work wise have been a bit of a nightmare. I've had people, as I'm helping them, give me looks that equated to "you're below me", which always makes me wish I could just say that I would not help them. I have had a badly behaved pair of individuals throw a complete fit, and nearly got a manager involved, over a twenty cent difference between the price on the shelf and what was brought up on the computer. I had one group of people throw a fit because they brought in a competitor's coupon that specifically said it was for supply items (paper, ink, pens, exc), tried to buy a phone set, which is a tech side item, and I had said it didn't apply. They even tried to lawyer the coupon saying that it did say that it applied to tech items, but when I fully read the coupon it was in the "does not apply to" list. I have had a customer practically say that I was stupid when I corrected them that a 69 Epson ink cartridge was not the same as a 69 HP cartridge. The final real stressor from this work week really shouldn't have me wound but it is. I had a customer come up with a third party gift card and a copy of a receipt. A couple days prior she had tried to purchase the gift card, but it wasn't activated, and wanted to know what had happened. I took a look at the receipt and saw that it was totaled at $0.00, which made me think "There was an issue with the computer, it didn't pull it up proper, and this is what happened". I proceeded to show the customer this, and to try ringing her out a 'second time' for the card, thinking that if it came up properly then it would be activated. The customer paid, however the computer gave me a "Not Activated" slip in response. I spent the next hour trying to get this sorted out, first calling the company that the gift card was to, and spending about fifteen to twenty min on hold, after which I gave up on them, then called the company in charge of the distribution of the cards themselves. I found out on that second call that their computers had not registered a request to activate the card in question either time. I then called my work's corporate support line, thinking that possibly there was a problem with the system. I was about halfway through the call with them when my second manager, who had just gotten back from lunch, came up and said that the gift card in question was actually not in our system yet because it was supposed to be in a future display. Ended up giving the customer her money back, with my managers telling me that I'd gone above and beyond what was expected of me, but I'm still stressing out over it, not exactly sure why.

I don't know how many of the people reading this are or have lived on their own before, but as I mentioned in my last journal I was unable to renew my lease at the place I had been living. I have, for the past month and a half now, been couch surfing at various people's places. While I am extremely thankful to have the friends willing to house me, it irks me to not have a place of my own. I had left my parent's place June 7th, 2009, and was living on my own in my past residence since March of 2010, so I'm used to being able to live independently. If the minor irritation of not having a place I can call 'mine' is not enough, I feel like I'm being consistently blown off by the person whom needs approve my stuff being clean before I move in. I had a problem of bedbugs at my place, granted it's epidemic in the downtown area where I lived, and the new land lord wants my stuff to be thirty days bug free before I sign the lease. The exterminator, however I have contacted multiple times to get things set up, and never have heard back from him. In fact I know that the last time I have heard from the guy was on March 29th,even though I have tried contacting him a couple times since,  and the land lord wants this individual, specifically, to take care of the problem. There is part of me that wants to find a new place and go from there, and another part that wants to simply just wait the year to year and a half to kill the bugs then move. I've mentioned the former to my sister, who doesn't seem opposed to this idea off hand, but I haven't mentioned the latter to her. There's a lazy side of me that is leaning rather heavily on that second idea. I'd been adopted by Elysa's family, and have remained on good terms with them. Part of me really just wants to stay with them, tossing them a bit of money, and just let the bugs die out normally. However this idea's not fair to my sister, who wants to get out from under my dad's shadow as badly as I did. I haven't talked this over with Elysa's family either so I don't know how they would take it.

Recently I ended up having a dispute with a friend over my attention span. The comment that she had made was, to my mind, a rather infuriating one of not being able to fully pay attention to her, and that I had my phone out a lot to show her things. Anyone who knows me understands that for the most part that I constantly have multiple things going on around me that I am paying attention to. This circumspect nature has come from a small list of things, a bit of familial training, working in food service for five years, video games, and amtgard. The person who made the comment has only worked in a true job for a week, consistently complains about newer games having way too many moving things in them, and has never really taken part in sports. I try pointing out that I do have pre-existing training to constantly be paying attention to more than one thing, the person says "Being able to pay attention to only one thing is a skill you need to learn" and that I should be able to shut the need to pay attention to multiple things down and leave it at work. I found this supremely insulting seeing as the person in question has nothing to base what she was saying on from her own life, and that I can't shut it off. There are very few things that I actually can do that with, and almost all of them require a distinctly high amount of concentration and/or manual dexterity to accomplish correctly. I have since told the person I need some space and some time, because more than anything I really don't need another stressor of someone going "You're doing it wrong" when I'm already emotionally and mentally unstable. Once things have settled down I'll go over what happened with her, but until then I'm slaughing her for my own mental health.

Another dispute that I've recently had with a couple friends is more in result to my current relationship status. I ended up finding out that a couple people whom I've known for a while is in a poly-amorous relationship (Or more commonly called a threesome). The third person that was in this group was the same person I was looking at to possibly date next, once I got to know her. I have never been tolerant of such relationships, as my own personal code is that you are only with one person, else wise it's a distinct disrespect to those whom you are with. On another level I've never liked such relationships because oft as not I've barely been able to have one girlfriend, and I've always turned a bright green shade of irritation at those guys who consistently have a girl in either arm or are able to talk a girl straight out of her pants. On top of this mild irritation one of the girls, whom I've technically known since middle school, straight out told me "You try too hard", "Maybe you should try casual sex" (Which I found an insult on its own), and to stop trying at my 'minimum wage paying jobs' and  "Figure out what you want to accomplish in life". First of all, I know I have attachment issues, and anyone who knows my history would understand why I have them. Second "Casual sex" I can't do, if anyone asks why I can straight out defer them to a girl whom I did try to have a one-nighter with, and became damn near obsessed over. Third, "Figure out what you want in life", I HAVE! I enjoy being in customer service, and if I was to go back to school than I would probably be going into a field that would simply add onto the services that I could do for my job. Fourth, seeing as you made these comments either you were stupid or callous enough to not take the several years of knowledge of who I am as an individual into account when you were talking to me regarding this. Needless to say, I've told the person I'm not going to talk to them for a while. I'll talk to the guy and the other girl just fine, as long as they don't shove the threesome in my face or make comments like the ones aforementioned.

Entertainment wise, I have been trying a couple new things. First of all is I got talked into playing League of Legends again, and have been having fun playing it this time. The initial time I had tried it I ended up, in my second game ever, being matched with a rather elitist, immature player and the experience soured me to the game. While over at a friend's house I was persuaded to try it again, and had a much better experience. Since then I've been regularly playing a couple games a day and enjoying them for the most part. I have found a site that I can play changeling on, and the biggest turn on that I had right away is that the storyteller straight out says that he wants a background before you even touch the sheet. I haven't played much, but I've enjoyed my experience there so far. While staying at another friend's house I was introduced to the anime Girls und Panzer, which is a single season, twelve episode show that is rather intriguing. I would highly recommend it, and you can watch the show on Crunchyroll for free.